Let me just shamelessly self-indulge for a bit

Honest fo shizzles feel like shiz w/o mu. Like today.

I like to engage in such activities when I have nowhere to go. For e.g. when in my PJs^

Fuck pretty girls.

After seriously trying out what some people say I "can" do, and what I wish I could do, and what I really want to do, I'm pathetic. I suck and I can't do it at all. Seriously.

So after this reality check I'm supposed to rethink my life and live it properly, let go of my insanity and obsession and waste lesser time on the internet but I know that a lot of parts in me don't want to do that.

I need a reason. for life. I honestly don't know what to do or believe in anymore.
School's pathetic, my life out of school is hopeless and I really don't see anything moving on but time.

I honestly want 2012 to happen. Pleeeeeaaase happen. And if afterlife doesn't exist I probably will try to kill myself in a matter of time.

You know, after blaming the world of materialism I find that I'm the epitome of materialism. Well not really after, but I've just always been like that.

Truly envy those who can move, have showmanship and people with outgoing personalities!! I used to think those people e.g those we see on tv are nothing much and all but they are really talented people! And I only realise that now. Hmmmmmmmmmmmm

PS thanks to the two people who left me such pretty messages on fs!! I do believe I know you both in real life so tell me when you see me so I can believe you!! HAhahahahhahah

PPS but if you're an old friend or a stranger, I thank you sincerely too <3