camera on beauty mode

my friend and me the giant

Let me just shamelessly self-indulge for a bit

Honest fo shizzles feel like shiz w/o mu. Like today.

I like to engage in such activities when I have nowhere to go. For e.g. when in my PJs^

Fuck pretty girls.

After seriously trying out what some people say I "can" do, and what I wish I could do, and what I really want to do, I'm pathetic. I suck and I can't do it at all. Seriously.

So after this reality check I'm supposed to rethink my life and live it properly, let go of my insanity and obsession and waste lesser time on the internet but I know that a lot of parts in me don't want to do that.

I need a reason. for life. I honestly don't know what to do or believe in anymore.
School's pathetic, my life out of school is hopeless and I really don't see anything moving on but time.

I honestly want 2012 to happen. Pleeeeeaaase happen. And if afterlife doesn't exist I probably will try to kill myself in a matter of time.

You know, after blaming the world of materialism I find that I'm the epitome of materialism. Well not really after, but I've just always been like that.

Truly envy those who can move, have showmanship and people with outgoing personalities!! I used to think those people e.g those we see on tv are nothing much and all but they are really talented people! And I only realise that now. Hmmmmmmmmmmmm

PS thanks to the two people who left me such pretty messages on fs!! I do believe I know you both in real life so tell me when you see me so I can believe you!! HAhahahahhahah

PPS but if you're an old friend or a stranger, I thank you sincerely too <3

this world is fucked and nothing is fair
i dont believe in afterlife
i want to vanish
all those who are so in love with this bastard of a world can go ahead and take my organs, my 'privileges' as a human and continue living to find out how wretched this piece of shit we call home is
this materialistic, superficial, racist and biased world i wish to burn






not even my flesh and blood will ever understand me

is it so wrong to love eating and being lazy?



















sometimes I really wish the whole world was blind

its been a while.
lol is this some britney song

SOMETIMES I RUN, SOMETIMES I HIDE, SOMETIMES I SCARED OF YOU,
BUT ALL REALLY WANT IS TO HOLD YOU TIGHT, TREAT YOU RIGHT,
BE WITH YOU DAY AND NIGHT, ALL I REALLY NEED IS TIME~~~~~~

HAHAHAHHHA OH HOT DAMN DIS IS MY JAM

I bought my mariel~~~ and now I want my janissss

makes me look lika tranny
i want to shrink my bones srzly

MAAAAAA BOYYYYY OH MAAA BOYYYYY BABY

lol i thought this was kind of funny
i have nothing to say about the colour edit, i admit it does improve the overall quality of the picture,
but her arms and legs, were the curves really needed to be cut off?
ohhhhhhhhhhh~ our society and its warped inhibitions;