misunderstood and misendeavoured

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surprised by someone i reckon i've met in my life, but yeah this whole blog thing was getting on my nerves and i decided to get rid of it. not that im ashamed of my past, there's nothing really to be proud of what i am right now... just got irritated by my archives and i purged my blog for a while. but well, it's back and unscathed now, just that the past 2 and half - 3(?) years worth of information has been exported. im not that ruthless to delete it all of course, and what with the crashing of my hard disk i guess my memories are really hard to keep. they are, somewhere, out there. so who knows, i might import them back here someday... for humans who come here, all i can say is thank you. I will recover my old state of typing properly and caps-ing when I need to like so. Someday. Lol. Ok bye back to my drama marathon. What's the point of life, really.

i need to look at the bigger things in life

i honestly think i have some kind of severe hair loss problem?
i keep losing hair... faster than my grandmother... maybe im suffering from something...
the last three inches look like it's just been dipped into a frying pan :'(

need to continue my olive routine...
and my scalp routine... im not sure if its helping or worsening my hair loss problem... hmm...

ohwell.
been putting my brain to more use these days...
i guess i have to reformat lacie soon because im running out of space on my computer and 1gb thumb drive...
come to think of it, i can't seem to find my hp hard drive which i reformatted for my mac, exchanging it with the lacie, it has my school projects in it but i seemed to have lost it...
why the hell do i keep losing things like that.
SERIOUSLY GETTING ON MY NERVES.
hope its around here somewhere and it appears soon...
it SHOULD be in my house, right?

my life is really turning into a joke.
ugh :/

ok nobody cares so i shant rly care either

omg really really really love SEUNGGI+SHINMINAH!!
sigh how cute can they be. so cute. so pretty. so cute.
the show's ending in two weeks?!?!?
4 more eps?!!?! :'( sad.
i hope neither of them dies!!
and although nohminwoo can kill me with his hotness i hope he helps them or sth :/
and i hope he gets some show on his own and becomes the next hallyu star!!
can gongyoo come back with a show alr D:
yooneunhye too, with some nice show like coffeeprince or goong and not fairlady :O
joojihoon too!! omo imagine all three in the same show. LOVE.

owell, at least there's playful kiss to continue after gumiho!! kekekke
but i hate it now that the 'noona' figure appears.
dont like leesiyoung either. pretty meh.
cant wait for them to be madly in love.
please dont drag on to a second season like taiwan, it becomes so annoying.

oh and i havent watched personal taste... and the kimsunah+leedonggun show lol old news... fairlady too though i might not go crazy over it... omo havent even finish hellomiss lol... wanna watch goong & fullhouse & coffeeprince again!!
hehhehe have to faster watch and delete so i have space for...(*to be cont'd)
oh and shining!! cant believe i havent watched that... might want to watch iris and kimtakgu... lol

*so i have space for... recreating my life.
i got news today from my dad's "computer guy" that my data(300+GB WORTH) is un-retrievable. sad much.
my life. is. i dont even know what to say.
i can't describe i cant absorb it i refuse to reformat it with hope that everything will magically reappear :'(
but maybe i should stop moping and try to recall what i had in it before i forget
as for all the memoirs that came in the form of pictures... i don't know... will i ever get over.

another bad news was i met the weirdest tuition kid's mother today.
she actually thought i was going to her hair shop to do hair? when i was like asking for her address?
and then she was like "you come wrong place" as if she wasn't the one who hired me... weird.
so anyway added with me being sick, having to walk under the fucking rain twice with no umbrella and i slept at 4am and had to wake up at 8am for my first tuition, travel an hour to the next one and an hour to the shithole, i had no more "chi" in me to tolerate the monstrosity.
therefore i asked in my best straight face i could render if i could start teaching next week, which i had already postponed from wednesday.
"yah yah i will message you my address next time"
-2 hours later-
"hi, tuition agency, i think you went to her workplace"
"yah, i asked for her address for tuition and she told me to go there"
"oh its ok lah, she said she DOESNT NEED A TUTOR at the moment"
"oh okk(WHAT AN ASSHOLE) bye"

its ok its ok, many more students in need of help and my going to the rescue with parents who are willing to pay shitty fees.

sigh the only good thing about today was watching 2NE1 live (AND WIN THE K-CHART!! :D) on KBS world.

my mom couldn't even get my dinner right.

ok bye back to gumiho loving ep11&12 cho chweet.

Break it down now, it's almost over now

What is this. This is a piece of crap.

Useless.

I'm addicted to 2NE1 - Love is Ouch!! Must-listen!

I wonder if I am. Like that.
Ah, whatever, enjoy your life.
Lol. "Atas" translation of I'll Back Off So You Can Live Better or Kojojulgae Jalsara.

What the fuck am I doing here when I haven't even started.
Fuck fuck fuck my life fuck my fucking useless brains out.
I am useless just like this useless space.
Fuck.

Okay bye I'm not gonna sleep, gonna stay up all night for the fight - is there a song that goes something like that? Hmm.

MLIA but please, FML.

Lol. An event like this has inspired me to bring my blog back to life. And it seems my URL is so lame it is unthinkable by the whole blogosphere of bloggers or aspiring ones such that after deleting it it is still available. Wow.

Anyway, HOW CAN MY FUCKING EXTERNAL HARD DISK CRASH?! My brand new, shiny and crispy Lacie, IT FUCKING CRASHED. 350 GB of BIG BANG, 2NE1 and well I think the bulk of what I'm getting emotional about is all the personal photos I've taken and the memories that come with those which I deleted from my camera's memory card because I didn't foresee THAT MY HARD DISK WOULD CRASH.

Well, it kind of is my fault that I put my computer on top of a 10-inch stack of books on top of a 40-inch (more or less) high table and my hard disk on top of all that. BUT IT DROPPED ONCE RIGHT BEFORE THAT AND WAS FINE! Or was it twice?

Compared to crying and whining like I did for 20 minutes before my shower which I just got out of, let's look at the plus side. I was lucky, it didn't happen the first time, and I could have FUCKING PUT MY COMPUTER AND HARD DISK BACK ON MY TABLE but no, that just never crossed my mind. Such that when my mom came in forcing vitamins down my throat I had to wave my hands and either hit my computer or hard disk or whatever and it had to drop and it had to crash............... :'(

On a side note, adding to the list of tragedies I suffer from I'm also severely in debt now.

So anyway my cousin has kindly offered to have his friend offer his services to me to help retrieve the data. Sadly, because humans and only humans created technology, it isn't perfect. Only 3/4 (give or take) of the data would be retrievable. And because of the emotional trauma I'm suffering from due to the uncertainty of this I doubt I would be able to study for my test tomorrow nor fall asleep.

Just a pass please, Tang.