umms.

fire as in im very motivated to chiong now lor.

I'm lika lame ya.
 ok I dont understand why people dont see it the way I do.
someone teach me how to paint a pretty picture.

The old man, the young boy and the donkey

5: Kinderland

"Aiyah nothing big one la also not Montesorri or anything"

7: Cedar Primary

"HUH. Canossa better. That school lousy one."
"HUH. My daughter RGS leh."

12: 225

"Why you don't do better..."
"Why you don't work harder..."
"You could have done better and gone to a better school..."

13: Holy Innocents'

"HUH? What is that?"
"Where is that?"

"Wah that school a lot of ah lian one"

14: deteriorated

"Better start working hard"
"Wake up your idea" <- As I've always mentioned, a phrase that makes completely no sense.

16: 14/18 or 12/16

"Wah not here not there, can go where ah?"
"Try JC lah go poly for what"

17: SP

"Poly ah? Orhh.....hard to go local U ah" (discerning smirk, thinking poly kids go nowhere)

19/20: SIM UB

"SIM ah..."
in their heads "See la poly no use one. JC is the best. Go SIM use money buy paper only"

Every fucking shit you do, fuckers have shit to say about it.

But I don't fucking give a shit.

보여줄 께

reason to get free stuff

HOLA

16 days to my birthday

you can buy me:

20pks of blkmth
a hard disk - preferably 500gb - 1tb
clothes that are pretty (i lean towards blue, silver and black, lacking thin sweaters wearable in the singapore autumn, and shorts!)
anything that can keep me from eating
etude face color corset #5 tight shading corset (any amount - knock yourself out, its cheap and its my base powder, i need like 10 to match up to the amount of bb creams i have stocked up before i finish them and buy foundation that actually matches my shade)
toners that keep oily skintypes at bay (or any acne prevention items you might suggest)
books (i like to collect whole serieses(sp?) hehe)
a legit camera digital/polaroid (if you're feeling generous, you can combine it with my christmas present; be aware that i do not lug heavy things around due to my back/shoulder issues)
a nail package (any kind! i get so sexcited over nails)
a boyfriend

and you can help me hint my dad if you see him:
to buy me this
 http://www.ssense.com/women/product/alexander_wang/black_studded_diego_bucket_bag/59382
or
http://www.ssense.com/women/product/alexander_wang/brown_leopard_calf-hair_trigone_wallet/53838

again, if you're feeling generous, knock yourself out, the chips are down with my dad, and i'm practically in love with everything on that site.

THANK YOU, MUCH LOVE XX

giving

like the words i see in the sky,
they are cast into stone.

nothing fills me but thanks.
maybe the blood is worth a little more gold.
i always believed it was unbelievable, but the sun seems to show me so.

so broken down and stripped,
so torn, and so dry

i guess i really wasn't as big as i thought i was.

essayd

I honestly just had a good laugh at my URL.
LOL. Seriously? Any other soul even reading this? Hahahhahahhah
Oh and it even changed while I was away. .sg liao worrrrrr

This is actually the lowest point of my life.


Maybe we would all have been better off not growing up.


I thought I hiatus damn long hahhahah but it's been.. 7-8 weeks? Hmmmmmmmmmm

I never thought I'd...

leave my blog untouched for so long

come off as annoying to anyone (though I think I do, more often than I think I do, but why...? :/)

feel depressed about how I'm perceived as

actually not be able to save money (I had faith, now I'm not so sure...)

ACTUALLY TALK TO SOMEONE FIRST (conversation starting is my weakness, no joke)

be so motivated to lose weight (I thought I'd be able to find someone who loves me for me, but not so much now I guess...)

***

not that I now think I have to become another person, before people will like me more, rather that I need to throw away my fairytale inhibitions and stop thinking of that one guy who will ride to me on maybe a turquoise-haired horse (HAHAHAH TOP)..................

and I know it's been more than like a thousand times I've said I'm gonna work on my health,

(hold on, need to pee)

(ok back)

BUT I REALLY REALLY AM DOING something and am sticking to it

enough of the fat jokes, enough of the loser/ugly jokes, enough of the ridiculous lies and teasing, I'm sick of it all.


not that these are the main reasons, but because, I, myself, in general, dislike fatness.

Right, I mean, if I saw a model and a pluz size model, I obviously would look at the model more.
The hot one. Just cause. That's who I am.

And I know there are people who are okay with and like fat people, and I respect that, I don't disregard that at all, seeing most of these people are my friends hahahahha because they hang out with me... I think?

Ok la enough with the fat talk. I need to go exercise. HAHAHAHAHHAHAH

Oh and proud to say I am now an undergrad. Though I still have to hit 2.5 before I can advance to my major... Shit I need to start studying for real now. In. 2. Days.

Madness.

Sometimes I wish

my life was like those Disney channel sitcoms.

Funny funny funny life, small problems happen and in the end it's sorta solved and some funny idiotic thing happens again. And got cute angmoh boys.

No la I'd rather korean drama. HAHAHHHAHHA hot hot korean men <3

KOREAN DRAMA FORMAT:
Ep 1-2: Guy and girl meet, and hate each other.
Ep 3-5: Start to understand each other and something will happen for them to keep meeting.
End of Ep 6: Romantic happening.
Ep 7-9: Shyness and small problems keeping them apart.
Ep 10: Finally admitting they're into each other and happily being together.
Ep 11: Sometimes same as ^ or next few:
Ep 12-15: Big problem which keeps them apart
Ep 16: HAPPY ENDING!!