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I honestly just had a good laugh at my URL.
LOL. Seriously? Any other soul even reading this? Hahahhahahhah
Oh and it even changed while I was away. .sg liao worrrrrr

This is actually the lowest point of my life.


Maybe we would all have been better off not growing up.


I thought I hiatus damn long hahhahah but it's been.. 7-8 weeks? Hmmmmmmmmmm

I never thought I'd...

leave my blog untouched for so long

come off as annoying to anyone (though I think I do, more often than I think I do, but why...? :/)

feel depressed about how I'm perceived as

actually not be able to save money (I had faith, now I'm not so sure...)

ACTUALLY TALK TO SOMEONE FIRST (conversation starting is my weakness, no joke)

be so motivated to lose weight (I thought I'd be able to find someone who loves me for me, but not so much now I guess...)

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not that I now think I have to become another person, before people will like me more, rather that I need to throw away my fairytale inhibitions and stop thinking of that one guy who will ride to me on maybe a turquoise-haired horse (HAHAHAH TOP)..................

and I know it's been more than like a thousand times I've said I'm gonna work on my health,

(hold on, need to pee)

(ok back)

BUT I REALLY REALLY AM DOING something and am sticking to it

enough of the fat jokes, enough of the loser/ugly jokes, enough of the ridiculous lies and teasing, I'm sick of it all.


not that these are the main reasons, but because, I, myself, in general, dislike fatness.

Right, I mean, if I saw a model and a pluz size model, I obviously would look at the model more.
The hot one. Just cause. That's who I am.

And I know there are people who are okay with and like fat people, and I respect that, I don't disregard that at all, seeing most of these people are my friends hahahahha because they hang out with me... I think?

Ok la enough with the fat talk. I need to go exercise. HAHAHAHAHHAHAH

Oh and proud to say I am now an undergrad. Though I still have to hit 2.5 before I can advance to my major... Shit I need to start studying for real now. In. 2. Days.

Madness.

Sometimes I wish

my life was like those Disney channel sitcoms.

Funny funny funny life, small problems happen and in the end it's sorta solved and some funny idiotic thing happens again. And got cute angmoh boys.

No la I'd rather korean drama. HAHAHHHAHHA hot hot korean men <3

KOREAN DRAMA FORMAT:
Ep 1-2: Guy and girl meet, and hate each other.
Ep 3-5: Start to understand each other and something will happen for them to keep meeting.
End of Ep 6: Romantic happening.
Ep 7-9: Shyness and small problems keeping them apart.
Ep 10: Finally admitting they're into each other and happily being together.
Ep 11: Sometimes same as ^ or next few:
Ep 12-15: Big problem which keeps them apart
Ep 16: HAPPY ENDING!!

I want to fucking kill myself.
Fucking postman had to fuck up my order cos they sent my fucking litas to my fucking house and cock eye never see bell or what nobody answer the door, took it back WITH NO COLLECTION NOTICE.
How the fuck I know it came on 10 Jan?
YOU TELL ME HUH FUCK LA CBKNNANCNASCCCB

Everytime I see a pair of litas I wna kill somebody.

Shipping included everything cost me fucking SGD 230.

And it's no joke considering how broke I am now.
Stupid Singapore Post sent it back on 6 Feb, apparently, AND NOW ITS FUCKING 21 MARCH?!

And now it's fucking on sale, and those bitches at nastygal don't fucking wanna send me another pair and have been claiming that they haven't received the package.

I shall call the fucking USPS now.

CB im so FUCKING PISSED

I am 13 in one

Aww I might be coming back on Monday but it's the last official day.

Bye my little office and everyone here.

It has been a good time.

And it's going to be an even better time.

CHEERRRRRRRRRRS

beauty wishlist.

On a lighter note,

I need these in my life :/

lipstickssssssss

peroxide

lovechild

naked

liploveeeeeeee

drizzle

lipglosssssss

wallflower

eyeshadowsssss

uzi

haight

minx

goddess

grifter

N.A.K.E.D!

NAKED 2!

powders blah blah

and lashes/bronzer/blush blah blah blah lazy to post hahahahaha

and this freaking holy grail my hair really needs desperately:

some people, just cannot stop acting smart

People say RIP to a singer/someone famous they like, you got problem is it?

Obviously they say it because they've listened to their songs, been touched by them in one way or another, so do you have to be sarcastic about it?

Of course there are people dying everywhere, but really, who gives a fuck about people you don't know/can't see/whom you don't even know have been living?

You tell me, will you give a fuck? A dude just died in Africa of AIDS. I don't see you feeling sad for 5 days about it?

So, stop trying to be the smart aleck here and move on. It's okay I'll just remember not to post a tweet in your remembrance. Since sending regards to someone I care about/knew in someway seems to bother you...?

And another thing,
'wah all the Korean stars face the same one'

Seriously.

How do you think Caucasians see us?
"Asians all look the same."

I can't stand people stereotyping the Koreans stars. Don't like it, fuck off. Don't come and say "all go to THE SAME PLASTIC SURGEON AND ALL ASK FOR THE SAME FACE"

Firstly, they obviously don't all go to the same surgeon.

Secondly, you think all your Hollywood stars natural one ah?
(See Scarlett Johanssen, Lady Gaga, Kim Kardashian...)

Of course, some Korean stars have had drastic alterations but most, like any other loaded celebrity on the planet, go for cosmetic enhancements to improve their outlook.

They don't all have the same face. Stop fucking saying that. I'm not asking you to recognize and tell them apart. If you don't like it, then just fuck off. What drew me to them was their music in the first place. First Big Bang, then 2NE1. Both for their music, no visuals at all.

So the next time you're going to make a comment like that, think a little bit about why you're hearing/seeing K-Pop all around you.