I'm so fucked.
So much work to do.
Hope it goes well for today.
Ugh and haven't finished reading for my FTT.
Double fucked.
And now I have to revamp this whole computer cos my vaio's screen is fucked.
Fucked again.
So after this Sunday, this space will be locked till further notice.
If you have Blogger I can invite you :>
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Saturday, November 19, 2011
this that this that
sigh.
my mind+brain.
what is your problem.
craving for papaya soup.
why must you be so delish.
and everything with fries!
sigh omg and the carbonara at cine.
why so awez.
food food food.
my brain.
3 days since I moved my butt and exercised.
need to swim more!
feel so good after swimming because I don't sweat hehehehhe I wuv swimming!
even though I always cheat and stop like 3-5 meters before the end hahahhahahaha.
forever broke iz me.
why why why.
can't wait for internship to start.
pay is my only motivation.
hopefully I don't mess up :/
quite scareded.
okai bai..
now I haz gel mermaid nailz too^^
my mind+brain.
what is your problem.
craving for papaya soup.
why must you be so delish.
and everything with fries!
sigh omg and the carbonara at cine.
why so awez.
food food food.
my brain.
3 days since I moved my butt and exercised.
need to swim more!
feel so good after swimming because I don't sweat hehehehhe I wuv swimming!
even though I always cheat and stop like 3-5 meters before the end hahahhahahaha.
forever broke iz me.
why why why.
can't wait for internship to start.
pay is my only motivation.
hopefully I don't mess up :/
quite scareded.
okai bai..
now I haz gel mermaid nailz too^^
Monday, November 14, 2011
tears of gold
I thought someone would give a damn. I forgot there's only me in my world.
@someonewhocares thanks for your concern. My bag/laptop that I have to carry around annoyed me. My hair that was tugged on by my bag annoyed me. The heat annoyed me. My weight annoyed me. The fact that I left my new formal shoes at school annoyed me. My want to eat annoyed me. The constantly decreasing weight of my wallet annoyed me. Everything annoyed me today. That's why I was annoyed and thought I was going to be weird tomorrow.
But it got better once I got home and put everything down and took a bath.
So maybe I won't be so weird tomorrow.
Thought I won't bring an actual bag because it annoys me so much.
But I gots no llcoolj clutch to carry lehhhhhhhh.
Wish I had the ability to save some money.
My fucking brain.
***
Thinking of YG's new group makes my heart go back and forth.
Weird hunch.
But anyways. Its too much of an obsession these days...
Gotta learn to let go...
I think I'll only be able to once I watch a full-blown 2NE1 concert and a full-blown Big Bang concert. Or maybe 2 YG Family concerts?
Only I won't be able to go to any of these unless they bring it to Singapore...
So I'll just continue stalking them online.
Imagine 70 years later... I'll be wrinkled and lonely, on my sad old computer with my sad old hard disk filled with pictures/videos of people who used me to earn money and don't give a damn about my life or death... I can only imagine...
@someonewhocares thanks for your concern. My bag/laptop that I have to carry around annoyed me. My hair that was tugged on by my bag annoyed me. The heat annoyed me. My weight annoyed me. The fact that I left my new formal shoes at school annoyed me. My want to eat annoyed me. The constantly decreasing weight of my wallet annoyed me. Everything annoyed me today. That's why I was annoyed and thought I was going to be weird tomorrow.
But it got better once I got home and put everything down and took a bath.
So maybe I won't be so weird tomorrow.
Thought I won't bring an actual bag because it annoys me so much.
But I gots no llcoolj clutch to carry lehhhhhhhh.
Wish I had the ability to save some money.
My fucking brain.
***
Thinking of YG's new group makes my heart go back and forth.
Weird hunch.
But anyways. Its too much of an obsession these days...
Gotta learn to let go...
I think I'll only be able to once I watch a full-blown 2NE1 concert and a full-blown Big Bang concert. Or maybe 2 YG Family concerts?
Only I won't be able to go to any of these unless they bring it to Singapore...
So I'll just continue stalking them online.
Imagine 70 years later... I'll be wrinkled and lonely, on my sad old computer with my sad old hard disk filled with pictures/videos of people who used me to earn money and don't give a damn about my life or death... I can only imagine...
Sunday, November 13, 2011
fucking straightener
I don't know how many times I've explained this.
I really hate it when people say my skirt is too short.
Seriously.
BECAUSE, IT ISN'T.
I make sure the amount of exposure is decent enough for me to walk out of the house.
The reason why people think they're too short is because I have a short torso, and longer legs. And also fat legs. So the part just above my knees is like comparable to another average sized girl's upper thighs and people think my skirt is short. Also I have a big butt and it makes it worse down the back.
But, no matter how short it is, I definitely make sure it does not make me look like a slutty vamp.
I make sure that if I bend down and reach for something, I WILL NOT EXPOSE ANYTHING.
Umm, hello? Look around you? I'm not one of those ah lians who go around wearing shorts as tiny as their underwear or "cool" fashionable people who wear high waist shorts but when they turn around, BUTT CHEEK ALERT.
And other girls (who are considered to be dressed decently) wear shorter than me can.
Then again, you might think, "So since you know how your legs/body look and how short your skirt looks, why not stop wearing such short skirts/dresses?"
Reason is, I DON'T WANT LEHHHHHHHHH.
It's so fucking hot in Singapore, rain also not say cold lah please, at least for me, which is another thing due to the amount of fats in my body, so I cannot fucking survive in pants. And I'm past the leggings/stockings phase so unless I'm really inspired, I won't wear those either.
And the main reason is I don't fucking care about what you think and I won't alter my choice of clothing/fashion for anyone. Okay, maybe when I'm in the working world, rules are rules, I'm a nobody so my opinion doesn't weigh much. But as for now, I don't see why I should change what I want to wear because I'm obese. I know I am, I'm not saying I'm Barbie, I just want to wear what I want.
I really hate it when people say my skirt is too short.
Seriously.
BECAUSE, IT ISN'T.
I make sure the amount of exposure is decent enough for me to walk out of the house.
The reason why people think they're too short is because I have a short torso, and longer legs. And also fat legs. So the part just above my knees is like comparable to another average sized girl's upper thighs and people think my skirt is short. Also I have a big butt and it makes it worse down the back.
But, no matter how short it is, I definitely make sure it does not make me look like a slutty vamp.
I make sure that if I bend down and reach for something, I WILL NOT EXPOSE ANYTHING.
Umm, hello? Look around you? I'm not one of those ah lians who go around wearing shorts as tiny as their underwear or "cool" fashionable people who wear high waist shorts but when they turn around, BUTT CHEEK ALERT.
And other girls (who are considered to be dressed decently) wear shorter than me can.
Then again, you might think, "So since you know how your legs/body look and how short your skirt looks, why not stop wearing such short skirts/dresses?"
Reason is, I DON'T WANT LEHHHHHHHHH.
It's so fucking hot in Singapore, rain also not say cold lah please, at least for me, which is another thing due to the amount of fats in my body, so I cannot fucking survive in pants. And I'm past the leggings/stockings phase so unless I'm really inspired, I won't wear those either.
And the main reason is I don't fucking care about what you think and I won't alter my choice of clothing/fashion for anyone. Okay, maybe when I'm in the working world, rules are rules, I'm a nobody so my opinion doesn't weigh much. But as for now, I don't see why I should change what I want to wear because I'm obese. I know I am, I'm not saying I'm Barbie, I just want to wear what I want.
Monday, November 7, 2011
not in the mood to take a dump II
whymai so broke.
but its worth it.
the price i paid to be a mermaid.
cb lor all these waves cheat feeling one.
they are all actually fucking curly hair.
which actually look not bad if i use a diffuser with my hair dryer but one problem: my hair IS NOT FUCKING CURLY.
so it looks gross. like maggi mee. and disjointed amongst my hair.
so i have to use the hair dryer to blow it out, which makes it become a lump of frizz, then straighten my hair, and then add waves.
and don't even talk about the washing part.
upkeep is quite tedious.
but i still lovezzz it.
my mo forever adding oil to the fire.
i cant count the number of times i've ranted with an explosive amount of expletives here, and yes, all directed to her.
cb.
im already in such a bad state, and yes im quite the impulsive spender, but isn't that what teenage girls do?
no amount of clothes/accesories/shoes/bags will ever be enough.
haven't go out to work (as in a proper, full-time job) of course don't know the value of money lah.
i'm still a student, so yes, you have to pay for everything.
im fucking broke = im fucking pissed.
i dont even know if i can afford food tmr.
its ok i dont mind starving i hope it leads to anorexia and you will love me more.
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.
.
damn long alr lor. from just now 10 years alr. still talking shit about me to my dad. think i deaf ah. cb.. cbk3
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but its worth it.
the price i paid to be a mermaid.
cb lor all these waves cheat feeling one.
they are all actually fucking curly hair.
which actually look not bad if i use a diffuser with my hair dryer but one problem: my hair IS NOT FUCKING CURLY.
so it looks gross. like maggi mee. and disjointed amongst my hair.
so i have to use the hair dryer to blow it out, which makes it become a lump of frizz, then straighten my hair, and then add waves.
and don't even talk about the washing part.
upkeep is quite tedious.
but i still lovezzz it.
my mo forever adding oil to the fire.
i cant count the number of times i've ranted with an explosive amount of expletives here, and yes, all directed to her.
cb.
im already in such a bad state, and yes im quite the impulsive spender, but isn't that what teenage girls do?
no amount of clothes/accesories/shoes/bags will ever be enough.
haven't go out to work (as in a proper, full-time job) of course don't know the value of money lah.
i'm still a student, so yes, you have to pay for everything.
im fucking broke = im fucking pissed.
i dont even know if i can afford food tmr.
its ok i dont mind starving i hope it leads to anorexia and you will love me more.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
damn long alr lor. from just now 10 years alr. still talking shit about me to my dad. think i deaf ah. cb.. cbk3
2(@&qiy5439q4'i32 eurghrgh4rw
Thursday, November 3, 2011
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
etc
Not doing it because of her but I've wanted long long longggg hair for the longggggest time.
Can't wait to have hair like this^^^^ :):):):)
And I've decided after that I'm saving up for a pair of Litas. Can't live this life without owning at least one pair. All so pretty but which colour to buy?!?!?!??!
Cool but too blingggg? Maybe when I got too much money to spend.. Which is possibly never lol
Must zoom to see the white glitter!! Pretty but hmmmmm
Like this a lot but on some sites the colour looks mint instead of turquoise so hmmmmm.... Probably will be my second pair if I bear to spend on it hahahah
^^^ FINAL DECISION!!! Too pretty and limited ed so.... yeap!!! The minute I can afford it, shipping and all, come to daddy~
and still...
very attached to the Thelma so maybe I'll get this before Turquoise Suede Litas hmmsies..
Funny how I used to like some celebrities like HD, DL, JB(no not bieber) and LL (whom I still love!!) and I used to save whopping amounts of pictures of them and every single video of them hahaha but now it's all replaced by BB/21. HAHHAHHAHAHA. And also cos my hard disk crash luh. If not I'll still keep everyone. So depressing when you lose data. Think I'm gonna buy 2 more hard disks to have extra back ups.
Kthxbai
xoxo lonelygirl92
Can't wait to have hair like this^^^^ :):):):)
And I've decided after that I'm saving up for a pair of Litas. Can't live this life without owning at least one pair. All so pretty but which colour to buy?!?!?!??!
Always safe but they don't have my size :'(
So pretty but no size also!
On sale! Half price! And no more size :/
Cool but too blingggg? Maybe when I got too much money to spend.. Which is possibly never lol
A lil dull...
Must zoom to see the white glitter!! Pretty but hmmmmm
Like this a lot but on some sites the colour looks mint instead of turquoise so hmmmmm.... Probably will be my second pair if I bear to spend on it hahahah
^^^ FINAL DECISION!!! Too pretty and limited ed so.... yeap!!! The minute I can afford it, shipping and all, come to daddy~
and still...
very attached to the Thelma so maybe I'll get this before Turquoise Suede Litas hmmsies..
***
Funny how I used to like some celebrities like HD, DL, JB(no not bieber) and LL (whom I still love!!) and I used to save whopping amounts of pictures of them and every single video of them hahaha but now it's all replaced by BB/21. HAHHAHHAHAHA. And also cos my hard disk crash luh. If not I'll still keep everyone. So depressing when you lose data. Think I'm gonna buy 2 more hard disks to have extra back ups.
Kthxbai
xoxo lonelygirl92
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